another day another heart break.
Idk y this days he just wont take me out w/ his friends
It's like he's telling me that im like menyebok
its not that i dont trust him ,i do but
i just wanna be there too.
it's like im left out .
i know i always meet him.
but now its more difficult to meet him
:(
im really use to him fetching me from school
sddnly things really change
he use to ask me out w/ his frens ard now
even wen he wants to go gym
when i wanna follow he wont let me idk y
it makes me feel like he have another . . .
n like im bothering him as if wherever he goes im there
but he's the one who makes me feel lyk that.
everytime wen he's out there w/o me
it hurts so much
eventhough he knows my mom is
not bringing us out today
he still wont let me tag along
i mean what is it w/ him??
& suddenly he asked me a random questions
these past few days like
if we're apart wud i still call him bie??
&
how i wud feel if he went for ns &
noone fetch me from school??
story of my life.
idk who to share stories w/
my mom?? nahhh!
she'll defend nizam coz she dont want me to meet him evrydy
Fatyn??? npe.she'll say you guys fight just bcoz of that
Nayla? nope .she'll say,You both always fight
Guess i have no frens school frens??
i feel like they just use me(some people)
i just feel i only have him by my side to share stories w/
but we always fight n
it's no use anyways he's always gonna be right
:/
I just dont know what i'm gonna do next
i dont wanna lose him but he make me feels argggh!
he made me cried alot these days
coz im just sick n tired n angry n frustrated
but NOT SAD!
feel like whacking his face .
but noooooo!
idk y he just wont accept the fact that im just rough
he'll ask me to behave like a lady
eee!
Labels: Hope That It'll Stay
Hello Love !
It's good being alright.
After stressing abt something ,for the past few nite was a total panic.
But ystd was a relievee (:
he was waiting there for the result
I bet bby's gonna be a Caring & Loving
Dad+Husband
:))
Coz the way he waited for my result
the way he was sitting & praying so hard for us
im so proud that he's so patient
he looks like a dad waiting for his Wife delivering his baby
&whether she's okay
i believe that he'll stay with me forever
n he will always be mine
bby just refuse to read my blog coz he's watching hindustan story & he said that he's brother is using it
NVM
he'll miss the chance to read
the sweetest thing i wrote bout him
xoxo
-Miyaa.Jz
Labels: Sexy Love
It have been a long tym tht i last blogged.& Now its 2nd of March 2010
My relationship w bby is gg soo well
He met daddy already &family outing to Orchid Country Club was
AWESOME.
We played bowling& he was shaking~
I love calling him SEPET ♥♥
As usual in relations we do have ups & downs
well i did tell him that
everything that he do,he do it for me
& all that i can do for him is to make him mad
Am i not good enough?
I do realise that it's my fault,But i wont ever let him go that easily
i love him so much
none of my ex have the guts to meet my dad
He's my everything
daddy said he hope that we will last tgthr forever
-
&i'm already planning for my future
i have to study hard this year starting from now
i realize that taking O's is very important
coz most of the job need 'O'level certificate
soo eventhough aftr O i dont get to go poly
at least i do have the certificate
&i'll go HigherNitec,take courses tht im interested in
&from now onwards i can strt saving 20 bucks in 5 days
coz i got my lunch box money for the F.A.S
-
Since he came into my life i changed ,my life chaged nb thx to him
i'll never let him go
watever comes our way,
we'll see it through
& u know thts what our love can do
It have been a year that he waited for me
coz life is all about waiting for the right tym to act.
eventhough he's mad i'll still love him.
& i'll throw away my stubborness
Fights just make our love STRONGER
EVERY SECOND OF MY LIFE
U MAKE ME CRAZIER
FEELS LIKE IM FALLIN
&I'M LOST IN UR EYES
mengertikah engkau perassan ku tak terhapuskn
& tlh ku berikan sluruh hatiku
apa yg ku genggam tk mudah untuk aku lepaskn
karna skali cinta aku tetap cinta
-Syed Mhd Fairul Nizam
♥♥♥♥♥♥
Labels: Love Drunk
& i'm BACKKK~!
love to be home~
I went for hols to 3 places for only a week
went to Penang,KL&Genting Highlands
wow!
exciting but at the same time missing BBy so much!
he borrowed me his iPOD cute kn haha
n he bought me a tin of hello panda biscuits
MAAAAHHHAHAH~
ILOVEHIM(!)
went to petalin beli shades
went to midvalley
i bought BBy's present
& NY cap woohoo!
dopes!
n i also bought undergarments
huahuahua!
I also bought M.A.C makeup
& 4 perfumes
2 ESCADA's
1 GUCCI ENVY
1 DIOR
kesian BBy's bday tk celebrate
evryone of his family mmbrs n frens
working boohoo~
:'(
naseb i bought him a present
Bju Converse original okayy~
But it costs RM59.90
- - - - -
well lately plans are up for me
Tmrw meeting BBy
but at the same tym idk whether ncc mtg
jadi ke tk
and anthr one is
it's been a looong tym dat
i nvr lepak with the 251's n the 565's
bcoz of that hal den
they invited me to the challet they say fathie wanna apologize
to whatever harsh words that he said to me
i told them i dont wanna go
coz its so embarrassing
n further more i dont think they need me
but if i'll go myb i'll bring BBy along
but i feel so guilty&sorry for fathie
coz we both created a chemistry b4
but it's such a waste
he blew it
eventhough all the things he said to me
i'll nvr hate him
but Abg Am ajak beli all the wedding items
for his wedding at 5 now idk where to go
how how????? help me
i cant make decisions
Can't wait for kak noor to upload pics
hahah !
so excited
&
I cant Wait for count down
& also PARAMORE concert
:O
(JAW DROP SIOL)
hhahahaha
free standing $100+
back seat(boringg)$68
but duit mane nk cukai
haiyaa~
but that is if Abg Dzee
is gg if not forget it
hahkz!
& OMG!
i havent finished my hmwk yet
i dont wanna stayback
but im too lazy to do it so
i'll just copy them
hahah!
as long as i get promoted to sec 4
I'll promise i'll study hard next year
AIM FOR POLY~!
till here calling BByBOo!
peaceout!
Drop it low for Countdown Yaw!
Labels: Fo Show
HEYHO!!
k I'm bored.
i have seriously ntg to do.
i wanted to do my hmwk but nahhh
TOO LAZY
& even lazier to
talk to nizaam otp
sorry bby~
ystd did not came out well
as usual talked to him
otp .
but wth
forget bout it let it go
all that matters now is i love him
nobody's perfect
everyone makes mistakes
just can't wait for monday
gg on a date with him again :))
planned to go to the park yay!
watching movie at e-hub
watching new moon~
evryone's watching the movie
bcoz of taylor lautner
boohoo~
too bad he's mine x))
but i'm in love with T.O.P
from bigbang
a korean band
wooohoo~
T.O.P & Taylor Lautner
just turn me on
yaknw
when the boys go wild . the girls go high
CIAO!
naesarang BLING BLING like LED
Labels: tragedies
Heyyya!
it's been awhile since i last blog
Well just now i went to lavender
to renew my sister's passport
there was alot of hawt guys
sempat cuci mate shhh!
nizam tk tawu
b4 i went out i tried to called him
but eventually something's
wrong with his phone
so i went to bugis after renewing my sis's
passport
i bought 4 stuffs only
pathetic=.=
its just difficult to gout with
3 kids n 2 moms
n yet bought 4 stuffs
for 5 hours
tried to find my sis's clothes
but cudnt find the suitable one there
was alot of the nice ones
for her type
but the price is even nicer
n some price are
affordable
yet u now my sis
she's too skinny
etc.etc.
anyways
i bought belt.
new faded jeans
sling bag
vest
well there's still alot
to shop tmrw
i just want
a smart long sleeve
checkered shirt
hoodie
n cap
but pity my sis
she havent even found any
clothes for her yet
n her wardrobe is
soo empty n so colourless
well i've learnt how to mixnmatch
from fatn & farah
love the way they dress
mwah mwah
n now im playing farmville
well nizam's accnt
:))
me n nizam soo far soo good
except for past few days he
was mad at me n scolded me
i froze coz tat was the ferst tyme
i was scared duhhh
soo scared
n suhaila called me said sorry
actually im the one
who is suppose to say it
n i say it too
we talked n talked
hahah at last frens
((:
got news from kush tat ais n her
there's ntg gg on anymore
JAWDROP!
but anyways
abg am invite me
fatin n kak ida
to his wedding
CONGRATS!
but im not sure whether
we can make it or not
coz its on sunday
got classes
;((
abg zal on the other hand
just broke up with his gf
feel sorry for him!
his motor was nicee~
he's asking me out as
we never met for a long time
RINDUUUU kak ida's clique
:DD
i've ntg to blog nw
need to call NIZAMBBY♥
sayang dier dohhh
:))
Labels: many stuffs gg on
